men, Real men. Especially as a ‘man of the seas’ men generally tend to think of themselves as invincible, not taken easily by the turbulence of life of the whims and trends of every thing that ails, blocks, or otherwise causes us to stumble. And even for the Christian, feelings of, we’ll call it, “supermanliness” can creep into our subconscious and begin to take root. It’s often not til the root takes stem, leave and bud that we notice it, and I will admit to coming face to face with the thistle of my own “supermanliness,” which ultimately becomes, less reliance on our jehovah Jireh, our Provider, and more on our own. For me, the transaction was not so much a “one day I’m leaning on God as my support, and the next day I’ve tried walking on my own.” But more like a patient of some terminal disease that decided he didn’t need all the pills to keeps his heart beating, I slowly cut out a feel vital aspects of my Spiritual life, determined that i couldn’t possibly need God in every single breath I took, or step I made.
I don’t know if many, or any, of you have experienced seasickness, or motion sickness of any kind, but it’s not pretty. It’s not like a normal illness, one you sleep off, or vomit and feel better afterward. there are pills, but I’ll get to that later. The point I want to make is this; no matter how strong physically you are, no matter how many times you tell yourself you can make it through, seasickness has a way of bringing people to their knees like no other ailment I know of. (Well, of course the terminal ones, but that’s not the point I’m making) I’m not talking about physically doubling over, retching and taking a few timid steps towards the near thing that’s not shifting from side to side. I’m not talking about the waves of drowsiness that overcome you after you’ve popped a few of the seasick pills. I’m talking about having to admit that you’re not strong enough to make it through the day. For me, that’s been one of my hugest pride issues, having to admit defeat, having to throw in the towel of ‘Me’ and saying ‘ok, fine, so i can’t do this.’ I’ve had to say it to several things in my life, some have been big issues, like a friendship that I’ve seen die and realized it wasn’t beneficial to my Spiritual growth. But it was seasickness that really crumpled me.
I’ve always thought of myself as a healthy person, not prone to many illnesses, but because i was stricken with seasickness I guess I’m not immune to all types of illnesses. As I crawled into my bed to relieve myself of the dizziness, I realized I had gone 24 hours without proper food (Let me restated, food that stayed in my stomach) But it had been even longer since I had had a solid Spiritual meal. If you tried to get through life by having a big meal every Sunday (if you managed to wake up for it and felt like it fit into your schedule) and then had snacks maybe every other morning you’d be hungry, pretty hungry and most likely weak. You wouldn’t be prepared for anything that required any sort of energy. Now, think of the Spiritual life, for ‘Man does not live by bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord.’ This passage from Duet. 8:3 and repeated by Jesus in the desert (Luke 4:4) shows how vital our spiritual food is. Jesus later says that ‘My food is to do the will of Him who sent me.’ (John 4:34)
the bible is full of references showing our dependence on God, and instead of me just giving you a list of verses to look up, it would delight me to no end to have you open up the bible on your shelf and find out for yourselves how much you need God, for eternity and for every day on earth.
You open up Your arms and give me a new start
I need You, I need You more than my next breath
I know that I am loved, cuz You bought me with Your blood
I need You, I need You more than my next breath yeah
My Next breath, by Hawk Nelson, i think it sums up my idea pretty neatly.
Until next time, your brother in Christ, serving on the Logos Hope, sailing for Singapore
Luke.